my day was.. ehh?.. well i woke up late [8:00, whoops-- haaa] so i got to school at 9:00.. just in time for 2nd period.. but i went in there late to cus i walked kristie to gym.. and wen i was in the basement kyle decides to call me & wen i picked up she hung up lol but i saw her 2 seconds later so its all good.. then we got yet another new sub in spanish.. shes our "perminate" one... shes like wayyy puterican and u cant understand a word she says.. lol yea this should be fun... then global we watched gladiator.. me & cristian passed notes back about our love life[which by the way for me is gettin kinda better..keyword=KINDA] .. then lunch.. something that happened made me very sadd... ehh i hate it... but steve gave me both his 2 dollars and had non so that was very nice of him =] ..then drama.. thennn gym were me & courtney were late so we got a late pass from ms. roman lol.. and annoyed steven haa lol thats always fun... then wen we actually got to gym me & courtney walked the track.. thenn math- ahh yes i actually get whats goin on!! its greattt lol.. anywhooo after i went to ms. hasandras w/ joe & kyle for key club and i thought they would have food![thats the only reason why i went lol) and i got 2 munchkins =].. lol yea i eat alot.. ms. hasandras informed me on itt haha- thenn me john kyle and joe hung up papers and all this stuf... and then i walked to the bus and came home... so now about my depression? its gettin there.. gettin better(kinda.. ) i mean ill just apoligize till he really understands that i mean it ALOT.. i regret everything i sed to him .. and didnt mean to mess things up cus i ws rele happy w/ him.. anywhoo so now im home.. im debatin whether im goin to the movies, or the party... i think i mite just stay home cus i gotta go to the hospital for a lil bit in like an hour or so then i mite have to watch my cousions... but if anyone doesnt have a life tonite like me and wants too call, feel free too =]

lol and i must add 2 things.. 1. at lunch 2day i was singin to aneta & melissa the song that gets on everybody nerves.. lol it was quite funny and amusin in my case... and 2. look how cute this is! lol http://www.auburn.edu/~vestmon/xmas_cnt.htm

hola peoples.. yea im still upset/pissed/ whatever im just still not myself.. its rele hard to forget the stupid shit i did but if he obviously doesnt care and wants to move on then im gonna have to try to myself.. im tellin u it aint gonna be easy butt thats just how it goes.. im still in pain- knots in my stomach.. & everytime i see him i just wanna hurt myself for messin things up with him cus i rele didnt mean to...i was so happy with him.. & i wish i could take it ALL back ..its just rele weird cus i didnt mean that to come outta my mouth.. i rele didnt.. & everyone is sayin they understand how i feel.. but they rele dont- wen they feel alone, sad, hopeless, depressed, feelin rele sry, confused & confused on why they said that stupid thing that made all this shit go on, then come tlk to me.. the only thing worst then losin.. is to keep on tryinnng.. oh and dont trust anyone and what they say- i hadda learn that the hard way.. and look how i ended up...<3

but i rele shouldnt be depressed.. at least not on here.. im just expressin how i rele feel... which is heartbroken and i feel pissed that i let my stupidity blabb its way outta my mouth(if that made any sense-in my case it did) anywho.. ill stop writin upsettin things cus its gettin me kinda upset too lol... soo school- borin x10.. same old.. track lol yea that was good.. me murphy and melissa "ran" our work out.. lol yea rite.. we pretended to then we would cut across the field and run inside and go bother teachers and what not... then we lost megan so me and melissa went to ms. hasandras room and pretended we were in the key club.. but she didn't buy it- but we didn't care! soo we got pretzels [& wouldnt let the real members eat them lmao] and then i sed "hmm ms. hasandras pretezels are makin us thirsty.. lets go get ms. hasandras pepsi!".. lol she rele thinks were weird.. but shes the odd one- u make a joke and she wont even realize it was a jokin matter.. lol but she is funny.. anyway.. then we were runnin away from coach everytime she saw us.. & i "chased" zack r. into the boys locker room.. and the s.i academy boys were in there includin the coach.. my badd lol yea so the endin to my day wasnt bad for a depressin week... so now im gettin readi to go to the hospital(to make myself in a more sad matter even tho i rele dont need it) and then to soccer... and i gotta tape the OC... so yea talk to you peeeeps[haha thats gangstaaa] laterrRrsz =]